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Duane
Cottrell

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BIOGRAPHY

Duane is married with two children.
His wife's name is Elisa, his son's name is Jack, his daughter's name is
Carson
He is a former youth minister, a failed church planter, and
a struggling Christian who is currently unemployed.
Along with his wife
and daughter, he lives with his parents in San Antonio, TX, and is
eagerly awaiting his 30th birthday. He has never written a book
I'm a husband, a father of two, a choral conductor, a graduate
student, a christ-follower, a thinker, a speaker, a writer, a mac user,
a subaru driver, a jazz lover and a blogger. My life
started in high school when I met Elisa. She and I both felt a calling
to ministry, though in different capacities. I went to LSU with a
scholarship in music. She went to the University of Illinois. Upon
graduation, faced with a choice between teaching music or entering
church work, I chose the church. I got married to Elisa. I entered and
graduated from a seminary that will remain nameless. After three years,
Elisa and I felt God saying "go," so we packed up all we had and moved
to southern California on faith. Lived on the grace of God and others
while working (for free) in a high school ministry that blew my mind. I
then felt called to start a new kind of church for a younger generation.
I went to the Young Leader's Network "re:Generation Forum" at Glorietta
where I heard Stan Grenz, Len Sweet, Brian McLaren, Doug Pagitt, Dieter
Zander, and others. I got inspired. I left so. cal. and moved to
Raleigh-Durham, NC. For four years Elisa and I laboured in love over The
Village. We met fantastic people. We shared lives deeply. We all were
changed. The Village ran out of money. We got hurt. Cason Taite was
born. I discovered Church of the Saviour in Washington, D.C. We moved in
with my parents in San Antonio. I started teaching music in a high
school. Jackson Thomas was born. I moved to Denton, TX to study choral
conducting at the University of North Texas. I finished my MM and began
my DMA in choral conducting. Interests: my family, the
emerging church, choral music, film, computers, jazz, lsu tigers, san
antonio spurs, miami dolphins, cooking, photography, tennis, golf,
camping, skiing, sailing.
(from his website)

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LOOKING
FOR CHURCH
(from
his blogspot)
by Duane Cottrell Monday March 21, 2005 (emphasis added)
People keep asking me where I'm going
to church. I'm only slightly annoyed by that question because I realize
that most people ask it out of genuine concern for me, and they have no
other way to quantify my spiritual life. When someone else asks where I
am going to church, I usually do them the courtesy of assuming they
mean, "how are you doing spiritually."
In any case, it always leaves me scrambling for words to express my
dissatisfaction with church as a whole and my hopeful expectations of
what a church should be like. The former elicits a certain defensiveness
in people because, after all, it is their church I am dissatisfied with.
The latter prompts most people to say something to the effect of, "well,
no church is perfect." Of course, I am not looking for a perfect church.
I'm looking for a church that closely resembles what I believe is the
Biblical model for Church.
My first issue is primarily theological, and therefore requires a
look beneath the surface of most churches. I feel that the church in
America has embraced a very self-centered gospel. We begin our sharing
of that gospel by promising that "God loves you and has a plan for your
life." Somewhere later on down the line we misquote Jeremiah and say
that God's plan is "to prosper you and not to harm you." What we end up
with is a large group of hopeful believers who expect God to keep them
from harm and make their lives prosperous and successful. I would like
to see a church that acknowledges the fact that God has a plan for His
people collectively, not necessarily individually, and if we willingly
join our life with His, we may very well lose our individual life for
the collective good of God's Kingdom. The life of a Christian may be
filled with difficulty, struggles, pain and suffering, much of which has
nothing to do with our faith. God has never promised to keep us from
these kinds of things, and many American Christians who believe He has
will be hurt and confused when something bad happens. Church should be a
place to work through those issues without using the phrases, "God has a
plan," and "everything happens for a reason."
A closely related theological issue is the end goal of the Gospel. Much
of our evangelism is based on the reward of eternal life. "Pray this
prayer so you can go to heaven when you die. In the meantime, here's a
Sunday school class, a choir, a mission trip and an offering plate to
keep you occupied until you do." The truth is that the Gospel is an
invitation into a new life-God's life-through Jesus Christ, and that
life begins now. When we make a decision to join Him, we are committing
our entire life to His work and His ways. It is, of course, a wonderful
benefit that we are able to continue that life even after our physical
bodies expire, but it would be closer to the truth to say that they
purpose of this life is to practice for the next, and those who are
merely waiting for the next life to begin may be a bit surprised when it
does.
The second characteristic I would look for in a church would be
the way in which they approach spiritual formation. It seems clear to me
that spirituality is largely an individual endeavor; prayer, meditation,
and intimacy with God are all private activities that are integral to
one's own spiritual journey. In many churches, the accepted means of
spiritual growth (or, one of my least favorite terms-"being fed") is
large-group teaching from a pastor or teacher. While teaching is
certainly important, and knowledge of scripture is the basis for all we
are and do, the spiritual life is 20% knowledge and 80% behavior. What
matters most is not information, but transformation. So, churches that
are centered around the spoken word, the pulpit, or Bible teaching, are
missing the most important element of the spiritual journey.
If we look at Jesus' own model of teaching, it is obvious that he spoke
to large crowds, and taught about God's ways. However, the majority of
his time was spent with his disciples, living the lesson, inviting
others to "come and see." A true Biblical model of teaching for life
change would be 20% words and 80% living. Companions for the journey,
mentors and encouragers, as well as small groups for discussion and
"processing" would all be part of a church that followed this model. The
idea that we can listen to a 40-minute exposition of one Biblical idea
per week and be effective in God's Kingdom is...well...silly. And
churches that claim to know the importance of the individual's inward
journey and outward journey, yet do not show evidence of that in their
structure and programming just don't make sense.
What you would see in a church that approaches spiritual formation in
this way might look strangely similar to an AA meeting. "Hi, my name is
Duane and I'm a sinner." Most churches are places where people have to
hide their sin. And when I say sin, I'm not necessarily talking about
big, hairy, nasty sins. I'm talking about the fact that you haven't
opened your Bible or prayed in a month. Or, that you saw a person with a
need you could meet, but instead of helping you chickened out. A real
church would be a place to come and work through these issues with
people who are right in the middle of it with you. Imperfect people
helping other imperfect people become less imperfect.
One final component of this approach to spiritual formation would
be the reliance on what I would call "non-cognitive" spiritual
disciplines. I believe that we need to re-connect with the truly
spiritual side of our being. Studying the Bible, praying through lists
of prayer requests, and serving in some kind of ministry work are all
important, but they are essentially cognitive activities that do not
force us to rely on the Spirit in us. We tend to be scared of
meditation, silence, solitude, and contemplation because we can't
control them and there is no tangible outcome. But the only way to be
connected to God as a spiritual being is to spend time in the spiritual
realm. Churches that do this might all look different, but it would be
evident in their structure, teaching, and most of all, their people. It
is likely that, looking from the outside in, one would be able to
clearly see the Holy Spirit at work.
The last component I am looking for in a church is some kind of
connection to the poor and marginalized in the world. It amazes me how
many Christians and churches can rationalize their way out of Jesus'
teachings about the poor. It seems pretty clear in scripture that one of
the most important things we are to do as followers of Jesus is to help
the poor, the sick, the hungry, and imprisoned (see Matthew 25:31-46).
Many churches will claim a connection to these groups of marginalized
people and point to their budgets as evidence. What I would like to see
is a church with a real blood, sweat, and tears connection to the most
despised people in our world, and not just financial contributions.
Living in America, this is hard to do. After all, being an American
automatically places you in the top 5% of wealthy people in the world,
so we don't see the poor and needy very often. It is easy to see how in
the early part of the 20th Century our concept of missions was largely
about sending others to far away places that were difficult to get to
and supporting them with our dollars. However, in today's global economy
and culture that makes it possible to click a mouse and buy a cow for a
whole village (www.heifer.org), there is little justification for this
distant approach as our only work with the poor. There are plenty of
people in our world (and our country, for that matter) who need our
help. Food, clothing, shelter, medicine, and justice are not enjoyed by
everyone in the world, yet I am sure Jesus would ask us to make sure
they were.
With the exception of churches that put catchy slogans on their marquis
sign, it is difficult to know much about a particular church at first
glance. Most of these issues take a bit of investigation to uncover, and
therefore I will ultimately have to immerse myself in a church community
to discover if it lives up to my expectations.
The problem I have, really, is not that churches like I have described
do not exist. I am fairly certain that they might. The problem is that I
am not ready for one. I understand the kind of commitment required in a
church like this. I understand the level of intimacy necessary in a
community that has these attributes. And, I am well aware that a church
like this would completely change my whole life. The hardest part of
answering the question, "Why aren't you going to church," is explaining
the things I have attempted to explain here. The easy answer is simply
to say, "I'm not ready." Either way, I'm telling the truth.
"What you
would see in a church that approaches spiritual formation in this way
might look strangely similar to an AA meeting."
"One final component of this
approach to spiritual formation would be the reliance on what I would
call "non-cognitive" spiritual disciplines."
"The last component I am looking for in a church is some kind of
connection to the poor and marginalized in the world."
Contemplative
Candles aren't just cool. They are not used simply as an atmosphere
trick to attract tattooed, flannel-clad bohemians. The fact is that
contemplative spirituality will play a huge part in the Church of the
future, and candles are just the beginning. More and more
Christ-followers want to connect with something mysterious, something
bigger than themselves. Canned sermons with PowerPoint and pre-packaged
curricula won't work. We don't want our coffee mugs, pens, and doormats
stenciled with various acronyms or obscure Old Testament prayers. What
we do want is an opportunity to experience the mysterious and
transcendent God that has been hidden from us. Many people are
rediscovering ancient disciplines and practices that have been around
for centuries, such as centering prayer and fasting. Movements like
Thomas Keating's Contemplative Outreach are becoming well-known and
popular. Liturgy is making a comeback, even in the most conservative
evangelical churches. The overall bottom line is that this connection
with the mysterious has a strange, unifying effect. To know that someone
else in the world is praying the same liturgy as you makes you feel
connected to something bigger. And, after all, it's time to make God
bigger than ourselves again.
Contemplative Spirituality: A belief system that uses ancient
mystical practices to induce altered states of consciousness (the
silence) and is rooted in mysticism and the occult but is often wrapped
in Christian terminology. The premise of contemplative spirituality is
pantheistic (God is all) and panentheistic (God is in all).
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GOD BLESS THE CHURCH
by
Duane Cottrell
Wouldn't
you like to know what the Church will look like in 100 years? I sure
wish I was able to see the future, but unfortunately no one I know
has an accurately functioning crystal ball, and my Magic 8 Ball only
says, "wait and see." On the other hand, I've spent the past
half-decade pouring my guts into reinventing and rediscovering
Church, so I do have a few ideas of my own. Admittedly, it's unlike
me to climb up on a soapbox and shout, but this year I'm giving up
tact for Lent. If what I have to say seems negative or bitter,
please bear with me. I'm not trying to be another critical voice -
we all know there are plenty of those already out there. The truth
is that I love the Church. I believe in the Church. I am passionate
about what the Church can become. And that is why I have to say what
I have to say. I've worked too hard and sacrificed too much to let
what I have learned go unheard. In the end, there should be a clear
picture of what I have gotten a taste of in the past few years.
Honestly, I don't know how to create a church like this - I already
tried and it didn't work. I don't know how to change a church into
this. I don't even know how to lead a church like this. I really
don't know much at all, but I'm generous enough to share what I know
with you, so here is my personal manifesto on what the Church of the
future will be like.
Ecumenical
The Church of the future will be ecumenical. Labels
just won't work. A denomination is simply a label that advertises
what unique scriptural interpretations and doctrines a particular
expression of Christ's body adheres to, and frankly, no one cares
anymore. At least, no one outside of those denominations. The next
generation won't commit to a denomination; they won't care about
creeds or affirmations. What will be important are the basic tenants
of Christianity, and that would be worth committing to. A slight
move in this direction has been the rise of so-called
"non-denominational" churches. But, as many have joked, it may not
be long before there is a denomination to govern all those
"non-denominational" churches. The reason this won't hold up much
longer is because joining a non-denominational church requires you
to "renounce" your denomination, in a way. If I grew up in an
Episcopal church, I can no longer call myself Episcopalian if I join
a non-denominational church. People need to embrace their history
and their heritage as part of their own story. In an ecumenical
community, individuals can retain their unique denominational
heritage (even if they aren't even sure what it may mean
doctrinally), and join together in unity with other Christ
followers. "In essentials, unity; in non-essentials, liberty; in all
things, charity."
Contemplative
Candles aren't just cool. They are not used simply as
an atmosphere trick to attract tattooed, flannel-clad bohemians. The
fact is that contemplative spirituality will play a huge part in the
Church of the future, and candles are just the beginning. More and
more Christ-followers want to connect with something mysterious,
something bigger than themselves. Canned sermons with PowerPoint and
pre-packaged curricula won't work. We don't want our coffee mugs,
pens, and doormats stenciled with various acronyms or obscure Old
Testament prayers. What we do want is an opportunity to experience
the mysterious and transcendent God that has been hidden from us.
Many people are rediscovering ancient disciplines and practices that
have been around for centuries, such as centering prayer and
fasting. Movements like Thomas Keating's Contemplative Outreach are
becoming well-known and popular. Liturgy is making a comeback, even
in the most conservative evangelical churches. The overall bottom
line is that this connection with the mysterious has a strange,
unifying effect. To know that someone else in the world is praying
the same liturgy as you makes you feel connected to something
bigger. And, after all, it's time to make God bigger than ourselves
again.
Missional
The future Church will be missional. I hesitate to
use that word, because it sounds too much like "missions," which in
my background means a special offering a couple of times a year, and
a speaker who is home on furlough with a slide show that will make
you cry while reaching for your checkbook. But that's not exactly
what it means. The next Church will be about people discovering, and
living, their own call. For too long, Christ-followers have relied
on the "paid professionals" to do the work God has been calling them
to do. There are poor and hungry people out there who need the hand
of Jesus, and there are lost people out there who need to know about
the love of Christ. If the Church is going to get anywhere, the more
liberal mainline denominations need to discover world missions and
evangelism (read, "missionary sending"), and the more conservative
evangelical denominations need to discover social justice and the
poor and marginalized at their own front door. Jesus was always
about meeting the needs of the people we continually ignore, and
that has to stop. But it means that individuals have to be taught
about their call. First of all, they need to know that they have
been called by God (yes, every believer has been). Second, they need
to be empowered to follow that call. That means realizing we don't
deserve to be called "saints" and "children" if we don't make Christ
our primary vocation. Spend 40 hours making money someplace else,
but make his Kingdom your primary concern. That's our Biblical
mandate. Church isn't a hobby or pastime, it's a way of life -
living for God's Kingdom. Churches need to stop perpetuating the
idea that "call" is for paid ministers and missionaries who are
somehow more holy than the rest of us. We have all got the same
commission from Christ to play our part in his Kingdom, making our
piece of hell a little more like heaven.
Community
If any one concept has gotten overkill lately, it is
community. Little is left to be said about community except that no
one knows what it is. We all try to explain it and define it and
even create it, but it defies us all. Community is what you call it
when people who share their lives are willing to lay down their
lives for one another. It is not a common interest, or hobby, or
lifestyle. It has nothing to do with social relationships or even
getting along with other people in a group. It is definitely not
about affinity-based small group Bible studies that meet in a living
room on a weeknight. Community is more than all those things; it is
each member playing a vital part in an unfolding human story. It is
people genuinely caring about one another. It is people loaning
their money and possessions to one another. It is people working
together sacrificially toward a common mission or purpose. It is
about being open, honest and vulnerable with your deepest soul.
Christian community is not closed; it is open to every race,
lifestyle, and age (yes, it is multigenerational). It cannot be
faked. It cannot be created or forced. It can only blossom where the
conditions are right. But when it does, you'll know it. I've only
tasted it once or twice, but I've never forgotten. Church is
supposed to be all those things. Church is supposed to be a group of
people who are your family, your blood, and your life. It is
supposed to be the beginning and end of who you are and what you are
about. It is supposed to be a place where you can be accepted for
who you are, without having to hide your sin. Honestly, I haven't
been in too many churches that act this way, or inspire me to act
this way. But I am convinced that it is possible, only because I
believe in Christ and his Spirit, and I am convinced that it is
going to be the way of the next Church.
Small
I
realize this goes against 30 years of church growth theory and
strategy. In fact, this goes against everything I believed for my
entire life about Church. The Church of the future will be small.
The megachurch will not be around much longer. I say this with a few
conditions. When I say "small," I mean small like Acts...small like
the First Century Church. We know the church in Jerusalem started
with over 3,000 people - a megachurch by any definition. But the
true church was what happened in homes. It's pretty clear that Paul
defined a "church" by the house at which it met. He also defined
"church" by city, thus unifying all Christ-followers in that
particular city. This is where ecumenicism, contemplation, and
community come together. All the real nitty-gritty stuff takes place
when we're face to face, knee to knee with other people who care
about us in community. But, like the church in Jerusalem, we are
unified by worshipping together as one body of Christ-followers.
Does this mean churches will be a couple of dozen people in a home,
and once a week hundreds of these churches gather in a stadium to
worship as one big ecumenical family reunion? Maybe. Or maybe it
means that "churches" will be less than 150 people who worship
together, but live out their faith in smaller community groups. I
really don't know. What I do know is that the community, intimacy,
and mystery that is being demanded is very hard to come by in a
megachurch...and I love megachurches.
Commitment
I think I speak for millions of my contemporaries
when I say I'm tired of hearing about lack of commitment. Many of
the most committed people I know have been from a younger generation
that has been labeled "non-committal" or "lazy." I say, give us
something worth committing to and we will throw our entire lives
into it. I've seen people commit to community, to the poor, to
making a fortune, and countless other principles or endeavors. What
people won't commit to, I think, are: institutions, jobs
(companies), marriage relationships, and churches, among other
things. Interestingly, all these things have a proven track record
of breaking commitments to the very people accused of not
committing. In the next Church, the only thing worth committing to
will be Christ and his Kingdom. The Church of the future must
understand that following Christ is nothing less than an
all-encompassing, whole-life commitment, and it must be treated as
such. If the Church can somehow manage to leave that commitment
unadulterated, we will all see more commitment from the next
generation of Christ-followers than any other in history.
Formation
Everyone I know wants a spiritual director. The
problem is, we can't find any. Most people don't even know what they
are, and are afraid of a spooky, "new-age," boogeyman when they hear
the term. The real hunger is for spiritual formation. No more
discipleship training. No more "Intro to This or That" classes. Most
of the emphasis in the Church has been on educating the mind. We
teach theology. We teach a logical, methodical way to approach
evangelism. We dissect the Bible into bite-sized memorize-able sound
bytes. But what has been missing is the education of the heart.
People I know are dying of hunger - spiritual hunger - and the ones
that aren't too attached to Christianity are bolting for more
spiritual seeming things like Buddhism, Islam or even Wicca. What we
need is to have our hearts educated in the ways of Jesus. That is
the basis of all spiritual formation: shaping your heart to be more
like Christ's. And it comes through reflection, contemplation,
sharing, reading, listening, and prayer. It comes through the
spiritual disciplines that have been practiced by our Church Fathers
for centuries. Writers like Dallas Willard, Richard Foster and
Eugene Peterson are our Godfathers because they are giving us a
taste of what the spiritual life can be like as a Christian. In the
next Church, the word discipleship will have to drop from our
vocabulary for a little while. In its place we will all talk about
spiritual formation and spiritual direction. If not, expect a
significant exodus to alternate means of spirituality. I hope I have
not been too harsh. As I look back on my history and formation, I am
in debt to so very many people. The Church - just as it is today -
has equipped me, educated me, trained me, encouraged me, prayed for
me, and nurtured me along. As I said before, I love the Church, and
these things I have learned are coming from a passion to see the
Church become the Bride she was meant to be. I am grateful to all
the expressions of the Church that have taught me these lessons:
Trinity Baptist, Saddleback, The Village, Westwood Baptist, Forest
Hills Baptist, and The Church of the Saviour. To all of them, and to
all of you, I express my deepest heart in saying, "God bless the
Church."
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Ruined For The Old
by Duane Cottrell
March 2003
All of a sudden,
everything made sense. It was one of those moments on the journey when
things converge with kind of a cosmic jolt; where everything that didn't
make sense finally does, and everything you thought made sense doesn't
anymore. For me, it was the sum of three years working to plant a new
church, coming from a conservative evangelical background in youth
ministry through a bizarre faith journey across the country. Faced with
the impending end of our ministry, and three years of hard work slipping
away, I was confused and struggling.
Sitting in the library at the Festival Center in Washington, D.C., I was
surrounded by the written wisdom from many years of faith and ministry.
Familiar names like Henri Nouwen, Dietrich Bonhoeffer, C.S. Lewis and
Thomas Merton adorned the spines of many aged volumes. Most names,
however, were new to me-names such as Thomas Keating, Elizabeth
O'Connor, Walter Bruggemann, Parker J. Palmer, and Jean Vanier. It was
an exciting time, because in the midst of confusion and distress at the
nearing end of our ministry, I had discovered something great: The
Church of the Saviour.
I was initially drawn to the story of The Church of the Saviour in
Washington, D.C. because of the remarkable similarity of its beginnings
to those of my own ministry. A young man named Gordon Cosby set out 50
years earlier to reinvent the church for our time, and with a small band
of committed believers had given birth to this remarkable ministry. For
the first time, it felt that someone was on the same page of the same
book I was reading, and I was ready for a conversation. So, sitting in
the library of the Festival Center with my wife and six month old
daughter, I had a conversation with the then 85-year-old Gordon Cosby.
There was a great deal of wisdom in that conversation, much of which I
will touch on in the paragraphs that follow. But the pivotal moment came
to me in a story Gordon told. Gordon's late brother, Beverly, had
endeavored to begin a church in Lynchburg, Virginia modeled after Church
of the Saviour. After years of hard work, the fledgling congregation
small and struggling, Beverly said to his brother, "Gordon, I don't know
what I am going to do. I'm ruined for the old, but don't know how to do
the new." For some reason, in that moment everything came together. I
didn't receive a vision or some grand revelation, nor did I gain any
special insight to my struggles. In fact, I didn't even discover the
slightest bit of clarity. What happened in that moment was simply that
for the first time I understood and embraced the lack of clarity I had
been experiencing.
Ruined for the old.
I had spent the past three years pouring all my effort into a new church
- a new kind of church - and had been truly transformed. I discovered
that church can be a place of true community. Not surface-level social
interactions, or casual friendships based on affinity, but genuine
togetherness in spirit. I hesitate to even write this because it sounds
so fantastical, but I discovered that people who have little or nothing
in common can come together in the name of Christ and truly love one
another unconditionally, challenge one another to grow spiritually and
emotionally, and give sacrificially of themselves to one another and to
the group. I discovered that church is about mission, which is entirely
different from missions. I was taught about missions as a child, which
meant that we gave our money so that a few special, holy people could go
to scary foreign places and do God's work. But the idea of mission is
tied to the idea of call, both of which are revolutionary to the church
today. I actually found that church can be a place where people hear
God's call on their lives, and in doing so discover their own personal
mission. I witnessed people who found extraordinary strength to do what
seemed impossible with their lives simply because God had called them
and given them a passion they could not quench. I discovered that church
can be a place of spiritual formation, where lives are changed at their
most basic level to follow the radical, alternative lifestyle of Jesus.
This was not simply integrating a few Biblical principles into a life
already based on a Judeo-Christian value system. This was a complete
reinvention of the way life was to be lived and experienced. For the
first time, church was about being the Kingdom of God. These things were
so radical, so revolutionary to me there was no turning back. I had
discovered just a taste of what the Church was meant to be, and I could
never go back to the old.
Don't know how to do the new.
That was the problem. I had this grand idea, this taste of what could
be, but it had simply never come to fruition. For three years, I labored
to reach people, mainly young people, with this new idea of church. I
had a few faithful companions on the journey who were as committed to
these ideas as I, but we discovered that for the most part people simply
weren't interested in a radical, alternative life of following the high
commitment to Christ. Most of the newness we saw in church was simply
repackaging the old with a user-friendly exterior, making church
accessible to the masses through contemporary music, relevant messages,
casual dress, and everyday language. We started our journey here, and it
was critical to do so. But over the months and years, we found that
there was even more that needed to be changed. As we experimented with
community, spiritual formation, and call, we found a little taste of
what could be, but mainly we found out how much we didn't know about how
to make it happen. How do you create community? All we discovered was
that you don't create community; community creates you. It just happens.
And when it does, you don't even realize it until your life is
different. We worked on going deeper in prayer and scripture, turning to
the ancient disciplines and monastic traditions. Again, we found more we
did not know. The more we tried, the more we realized we simply did not
know how to make this new thing work.
I realize that my journey is nowhere near over. I have come through some
very difficult terrain, but there is much more to come, both rewarding
and challenging. In the paragraphs that follow, I am going to try to
make some sense of where I have been, hoping it will point me to where I
may be going. This is merely a record of my own personal journey, not
some new theology or method or church growth principle. But if you're
interested, you are invited-along with countless others-to journey with
me.
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Pursuing God
By Duane Cottrell
July 2004
What's the difference between pursuing God and pursuing a better life?
Are we set apart from non-believers by our life goals, or only by the
fact that we ask God to help us achieve them?
I am convinced that we live in a culture that forces us to make God a
"spare time" activity rather than our primary purpose in life. The three
basic goals of American life are: get an education, get a job, and have
a family. The majority of people's energy is spent pursuing those three
things, and Christians are no exception. It is only after those three
goals are in focus that we direct our resources toward pursuing God
(those who are not Christians do the same thing, but instead of trying
to become a better Christian they try to become a better fly-fisherman).
But it is difficult to arrange your life around God and His Kingdom when
you have already made major choices concerning your education, career,
and family. Even when we begin our spiritual journey at a young age we
are taught that only a few receive a calling from God regarding a
career, and if we are not one of the "called" then we are free to choose
any career we like, as long as we continue to pursue spiritual growth.
No one tells us we will someday reach a point at which we can no longer
grow spiritually unless we give God our whole lives.
The problem seems to be that we are not taught to see life through the
eyes of God's Kingdom. God's Kingdom encompasses everything that is
under His rule and reign, including here on Earth (as in, "Thy Kingdom
come on earth as it is in heaven."). That means that those of us who
profess Jesus as Lord live within His Kingdom, and therefore must view
all things from that perspective. Jesus' prayer from Matthew 6 gives us
a glimpse of the purpose of God's Kingdom-to come. How does God's
kingdom come? It grows. Those who are not in it are invited to come in.
Those who are in it are fed, clothed, comforted and healed. Love
conquers hate, good conquers evil, and Jesus Christ is praised by
everyone everywhere. So as participating members of the Kingdom of God,
you and I have a specific role to fulfill in achieving this purpose.
What most of us have never realized is the size of our role-it literally
must consume our life and become the reason we exist. It cannot simply
be a spare-time activity done after we get home from our "real job."
God's one and only concern is that his kingdom work gets done. Jesus
said that his father was always at work, and his job was to do the work
of his father. Jesus also said that his "food" was to do the will of
God. And God wants his only concern to be ours, too. It's clear that we
are to emulate Jesus in his pursuit of God's work. Jesus said, "Do not
worry about what you will eat or drink, but seek first the Kingdom of
God, and all these things (food, clothing, shelter, etc.) will be given
to you." We have to take seriously everything He said, including, "sell
all your possessions and give the money to the poor, then you can follow
me," "he who seeks to save his life will lose it, but he who seeks to
lose his life for my sake will find it," "deny yourself, take up your
cross, and follow me," and, "anyone who does not hate his mother and
father and brothers and sisters cannot be my disciple." These are
powerful instructions that cannot possibly be carried out in just a few
hours a week. Jesus is staking a claim on your whole life, and most of
us have not handed it over.
Perhaps we need to learn to start asking God the simple question, "how
can my life help your Kingdom come?" If our career and life's purpose do
not specifically and directly impact God's Kingdom, then we need to
rearrange everything. Instead of asking God to do things for us and work
in our lives to answer our requests, we should be asking God to simply
speak, and we should simply listen. In listening, we may hear God
calling us to do our part
How tragic that we in
this dark day have had our seeking done for us by our teachers.
Everything is made to center upon the initial act of "accepting" Christ
(a term, incidentally, which is not found in the Bible) and we are not
expected thereafter to crave any further revelation of God to our souls.
We have been snared in the coils of a spurious logic which insists that
if we have found Him, we need no more seek Him...
In the midst of this great chill there are some, I rejoice to
acknowledge, who will not be content with shallow logic. They will admit
the force of the argument, and then turn away with tears to hunt some
lonely place and pray, "O God, show me Thy Glory." They want to taste,
to touch with their hearts, to see with their inner eyes the wonder that
is God.
- A.W. Tozer, "The Pursuit of God"
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